(Pre-scriptum - Not publishing any pictures lest it should look like one of those spammy sites - Imagine a girl with stretched arms in a sunflower field or a woman musing in the backdrop of a forest, I feel like that now).
When we were hit with the news of Covid, we all figured it was something short- lived. We continued life as usual, we thought we knew a global pharma company would come up with a cure. We figured there was something happening in the background to combat and cure this so none of us ever prepared ourselves to what was about to happen! I am surprised like the rest of you that we acclimated ourselves to the Lockdown and its consequences. We stopped shopping, we stopped meeting friends, the customary TGIFs, the coffee dates, we adopted to social distancing, things we thought were necessary or important are no longer our priorities. Who would have thought there would be a drastic change in the way we lived and interacted? And more so who would have thought we would be okay with this change (not some of the buttheads who think this is a political conspiracy, am I right Florida?)? So it goes..
This lockdown period has allowed me more time to think. I am not speaking in terms of time management but the ability to think internally, introspect inside without saying it out loud or having my environment affect my thoughts, the nature and flow both. Have you wondered how sometimes just the people you re around, just their presence impacting your thoughts a certain way? Maybe the thought was about something gloomy but have you seen how it changes if someone around you is making a joke and laughing? You do not even have to be involved in a banter with this person, even if they are around and laughing, do you not see a change in your own mood? The quality of a thought can be enriched positively or negatively by the environment you are in. So this lockdown has given me my space and time to think internally and am happy to report, so far without any influence, I am enjoying the thoughts.
I have been musing a lot now about things and places, about birds and eras, about people and love, about companies and products and a lot more. These musings have been a byproduct of a suddenly industrious mind. I have the ability to bucket, park and pace my work – professional or personal, physical or psychological. I am able to pick some of the sounds, views which would generally be as we put it “running in the background” and appreciate them a bit more. The thoughts about healing of Earth and the ozone layer, of the birds and animals being able to run wild (quite literally) without any human or human manufactured interruptions, the spirituality associated with a cloudy sky, with the refreshing rains and the warm mornings.
Despite being holed-up in the confines of my room, I feel strangely empowered from within. An implosion of sorts – its not for display, its not for others. Its created for me within me, a democracy of my soul. My room feels like a beautiful olfactive island, rich in colors - the bed spread, the table cloth, the different colors of my books in the library unit, my clothes in the wardrobe, the whatever little art I am able to make for the walls, the vision board. The colors forming a white light beam that is mostly reflective of the imploding happening inside.
Ahah! Yes, I hear your smirk , yup yup, can hear it loud and clear. I don’t know if its to do with how my introverted side is able to explore and shine or if it is a short lived phase akin to experiencing some wild crazy high! But the fact of the matter is and remains that it is wonderful to see nature around me blooming and how my soul is hence able to grow branches in ways I wouldn’t be able to explain.
The summation is it’s a beautiful world. We don’t have to have routines, we don’t have to have to do socializing, we don’t have to juggle between introversion and extraversion, we are by ourselves now and its an exquisite time to reflect upon our inner worlds and thrive on the strengths that have long lied inside untapped. Try it .. Give more power to yourself and the nature around you, you might just end up feeling a lot different than how you did when the initial shock of Lockdown set in.
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